With half a year passed and no word from me, I can only imagine that some of you imagined my demise. I’m sure my last few posts must have left you with uncertainty as to my status. Well, I’ll try to clear up as much of that confusion as I can, as well as introducing some new, better things about my life and the status of my works. To kick it all of, I’d like to announce the start of my new Patreon! Now, you’ll be able to assist me in my pursuit of getting these crazy stories out of my head and onto paper.
In July of 2015, I ended up overestimating the bonds of friendship. I should have realized that five grand was a lot to snap those bonds. And to be fair, I only inherited about 1.5k of that debt from an ex, so the rest is on me. While my landlord was a great friend, I, unfortunately, was not. He had to ask me to leave his apartment so that he could bring in a rental company. we both knew I had been taking advantage of him, and I do feel horribly about it.
I have to wonder if I learned my lesson however. In a desperate attempt to save my situation, I reached out to find roommates. I ended up finding a girl from a less than reputable site. I’ll spare you the gritty details and say that this was an ill advised move. After she paid me a thousand dollars to stay with me, I found out that we couldn’t stay even if I got a roommate. We were homeless. Luckily, she had a car, and I had another good friend willing to take me in, at least temporarily. Well… More, they were willing to take ME in, but she was only allowed to stay temporarily.
Our relationship was nebulous, this girl and I. I won’t go into details, but it wasn’t healthy for either of us. It was almost a romantic relationship, but not quite. I could never see myself with this girl for my entire life. She was a drug addict, you see, and jobless. She had lied to me when she said she had a job. That should have been my first clue to drop her. However, I am nothing if not a soft heart.
We spent four months in a tumultuous relationship that was no good for either of us. I was constantly uncomfortable, and her needs were never fulfilled. I can only imagine how much pain it must have caused her, because it certainly caused me a lot. Eventually, she said things about my sexuality that I just couldn’t take, and I had to break things off.
Once I made that decision, I went to my friend to see if they could take me in, but their landlord said no. I had to ask my best friend for her help, and she allowed me to take a room in her house, for a reasonable rent-rate. In exchange, I’m going to be helping her keep up with her kids and the housework. It’s… A difficult trade off, but rewarding. I love those children like they were my own, and being able to spend more time with them is nice.
Beyond that situation, I now work as an office assistant in a vaping shop. You can check out their website if you’d like, and see what I do. I’m in charge of so much now, it’s difficult to keep track of it all. While it’s challenging and rewarding, sometimes I have a hard time choosing to get out of bed in the morning. I keep finding myself wondering if it’s worth it to go back in. And then I remember what I’m trying for. What my goals are. Honestly, the biggest thing that’s keeping me going right now is the fact that if I give up, I won’t ever get the things I want.
My friend and I made plans to visit Venice in the spring. In May, near my birthday. I’m hoping I’ll have enough saved to do it. As it is, I may not. As it is, I may have to take a second job, just to survive. How sad is it that a single person has to take two jobs, just to survive? But you have to do what you have to do.
This… was a long rant, and for that I’m sorry. I only wanted to let you all know how I’ve been and what I’ve been up to. So, here’s a summary of what I’m going to be doing. I’ve started the Patreon mentioned above so that hopefully, if people like my work enough, they’ll tip me! I’m also halfway through the first draft of an urban fantasy novel, and I am in the middle of editing my Kurylian Knight novel. The KK novel will probably be out around mid year next year. (I keep saying this, but hopefully this time it’ll be true!) And, I plan on saving up enough money to go to venice.
How have you all been? I hope to hear some lovely stories from you below, in the comments. Thank you.