Today’s IWSG post kind of snuck up on me. Normally, I have them planned out in advance, and only just post them the day of the post. But this time, I had a very full day and did not even think to post anything. So now I’m writing this at ten pm in a hotel room, surrounded by people trying to go to sleep. Included in that list is the person sharing a bed with me, who happens to be a three year old little girl. Poor thing sleeps like a drunken octopus at a frat party. Hands everywhere. Feet in faces. It’s tragic.
But my IWSG is about fear today. Because I find that this new manuscript I’ve just started (Oh did I mention I finished a manuscript? Because I did. I’m so proud of that.) has me so afraid of it that it’s hard to even write what happens next. Every time I sit down to write it, something changes, and my original outline becomes nothing more than a guideline. This is terrifying to me.
Not only that, but whenever I sit down to write it, my anxiety kicks up, and I start thinking that maybe I’m not good enough to write it. That maybe I’m just trying to figure out a way to kill time, and this isn’t the right story to be told. I sit down, and I think “I can’t do this.”
But I do. I pound out words every day. Not a lot of words. I’m certainly winning no speed prize for this manuscript. But I am writing every day, thanks to the Camp NaNoWriMo July and thanks to my amazing mentor, Chris Votey, who keeps me going. So here’s my advice to anyone plagued by fear when writing their manuscript:
Be afraid. But don’t let that fear define your creation.
Now, PSA over, let’s talk about a few things.
Two! I’m going to be detailing the editing process as I go through and edit Knight of Kuryle, so keep an eye out for that.
And Three! I have some tentative covers of my own to reveal! The self-made covers for Knight of Kuryle and my current WIP, A Deeper Love, are below. Please tell me what you think, and any way that I can improve them! Thank you in advance, and have a great fourth of july!