This is a really hard post to write. Recently, my anxiety lead me to lose my job. This lead to an extreme downswing in my depression. A lot of my self-worth is tied into how I can support myself, and it’s very hard to have any self-worth at all, when you know you are the cause of losing your own job. I can’t blame the work. It was exactly what I was told, and knew, to expect. All I can blame is this disease in my head that makes it impossible to pick up a phone without my heart beating terribly fast.
This should have been a triumphant month for me. I finally finished Knight of Kuryle, and I’m in the editing stage, before I can give it to beta readers. However, because of my downswing, I have had no energy for anything other than basic survival. There have been days where I cannot get dressed. There have been days I have eaten only one meal. My job search has turned up one part time, temporary position.
I have been plagued with doubts. How am I going to keep my apartment? How am I going to keep from inconveniencing those I care about? How am I going to get food? These are things that circle in my mind.
First Book of the Kurylian Saga: 1.5 sections rewritten –
- Knight of Kuryle – 31,379 words – Draft complete – Editing started
Kaimi Rowe Series: Seeker Born – Rough Draft – Restarted w/new concept
- Snippet can be seen in Bruises and Broken Bones
An Asexual’s Guide to Dating – Outlined – one section handwritten
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Edit Knight of Kuryle
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